Sooooooo far. Soooooooooooooo good.

Nothing new happened or been happening. I am just on that point when things get somewhat serious regarding school work, aka: end of semester!
I have 3 papers to do, and I definetely want to leave them done. But for some reason, I am not worried, not anxious, not stressed, not crying-ish, not bothered as I was last year at this point of the year.

I mentioned to David a new year´s resolution list. And while seating on the metro going home I always think. And one of the thoughts this week was to go back actually and think of what I have got so far THIS year, compared to 2006.

A year ago to today

A year ago I was Indiana, so unhappy with I still don´t know what. Failing a class (K201 - Computer in Business, Kelley School of Business, how could I forget?) and freaking out about it. Spending my nights in Herman B. Wells library, spending my money on coffee and worried about I still don´t know what. Going to therapy, hating my medicine, and other little things that I also was very unhappy and hopeless.

I never understood why my mom so many times complained that I complained too much, that I was overall spending my time when I could be enjoying it.

It seems like I am mentioning the dark ages when I think back! Now I am still may be failing a class (Philosophy, blind teacher I dont even know the name) with an "oh I am not going to die" attitude. Spending my nights with friends, or just walking around my favorite city or in friend´s couches. Spending my money in different restaurants, clothes and traveling. Going to museums, and not caring about this medicine anymore as long as I am healthy. On top of all, I am in love with the most adorable person I could ever met :)

But for now, let me say...

Let me just say I learned from I dont know what yet. Every day I realise this trip to Spain is doing wonders. I am not even mentioning how amazing Europe and the opportunity of being here is. But what I am learning. I can endure to things I never knew I could. Its the first time I am so far away from my mom or even going days without talking to her. Or even not mentioning every detail of my life to her anymore. In the beggining it made so nervous and angry. Until I realized that it´s ok, I may have grown up.
Just so you know, my relationship with my mom is probably the strongest mom/daughter relationship I have ever heard of....
But letting go a bit is good.

I also can´t deny how some people were wrong about me. Very, indeed. Living in the capital of Spain with screaming and rude people around you can make you an aggressive person when necessary. For that comment, I´ll stop it here.

In the end of everything...

We always realize that after the rain the flowers get to grow. And after it´s too dry a tree´s roots grow deeper. What I mean is: after a bad time, one becomes stronger and smarter, the skin gets thicker.
And after being away from the usual for a while and discovering and listening to new things, we get to find out who we really are without any critics on the background. Just the way WE like.
We get to discover what we like, who we like to spend our days with, how we want to spend our days and what kind of thoughts will cross your mind.
If the glass is half full or half empty.
You know?!

SO, with so many words all I wanted to say is: I am fine, alright. Much happier and stronger than a year ago.
...and so you know: this time my glass is half full; mom.

"Be brave, take risks. Nothing can substitute experience." (Paulo Coelho)