That's probably one of the funniest Dane Cook jokes ever.... So disgusting. hahahahahaha...
Is there such thing called destiny?
17 years ago
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Sooooooo far. Soooooooooooooo good.
Nothing new happened or been happening. I am just on that point when things get somewhat serious regarding school work, aka: end of semester!
I have 3 papers to do, and I definetely want to leave them done. But for some reason, I am not worried, not anxious, not stressed, not crying-ish, not bothered as I was last year at this point of the year.
I mentioned to David a new year´s resolution list. And while seating on the metro going home I always think. And one of the thoughts this week was to go back actually and think of what I have got so far THIS year, compared to 2006.
A year ago to today
A year ago I was Indiana, so unhappy with I still don´t know what. Failing a class (K201 - Computer in Business, Kelley School of Business, how could I forget?) and freaking out about it. Spending my nights in Herman B. Wells library, spending my money on coffee and worried about I still don´t know what. Going to therapy, hating my medicine, and other little things that I also was very unhappy and hopeless.
I never understood why my mom so many times complained that I complained too much, that I was overall spending my time when I could be enjoying it.
It seems like I am mentioning the dark ages when I think back! Now I am still may be failing a class (Philosophy, blind teacher I dont even know the name) with an "oh I am not going to die" attitude. Spending my nights with friends, or just walking around my favorite city or in friend´s couches. Spending my money in different restaurants, clothes and traveling. Going to museums, and not caring about this medicine anymore as long as I am healthy. On top of all, I am in love with the most adorable person I could ever met :)
But for now, let me say...
Let me just say I learned from I dont know what yet. Every day I realise this trip to Spain is doing wonders. I am not even mentioning how amazing Europe and the opportunity of being here is. But what I am learning. I can endure to things I never knew I could. Its the first time I am so far away from my mom or even going days without talking to her. Or even not mentioning every detail of my life to her anymore. In the beggining it made so nervous and angry. Until I realized that it´s ok, I may have grown up.
Just so you know, my relationship with my mom is probably the strongest mom/daughter relationship I have ever heard of....
But letting go a bit is good.
I also can´t deny how some people were wrong about me. Very, indeed. Living in the capital of Spain with screaming and rude people around you can make you an aggressive person when necessary. For that comment, I´ll stop it here.
In the end of everything...
We always realize that after the rain the flowers get to grow. And after it´s too dry a tree´s roots grow deeper. What I mean is: after a bad time, one becomes stronger and smarter, the skin gets thicker.
And after being away from the usual for a while and discovering and listening to new things, we get to find out who we really are without any critics on the background. Just the way WE like.
We get to discover what we like, who we like to spend our days with, how we want to spend our days and what kind of thoughts will cross your mind.
If the glass is half full or half empty.
You know?!
SO, with so many words all I wanted to say is: I am fine, alright. Much happier and stronger than a year ago.
...and so you know: this time my glass is half full; mom.
"Be brave, take risks. Nothing can substitute experience." (Paulo Coelho)
I have 3 papers to do, and I definetely want to leave them done. But for some reason, I am not worried, not anxious, not stressed, not crying-ish, not bothered as I was last year at this point of the year.
I mentioned to David a new year´s resolution list. And while seating on the metro going home I always think. And one of the thoughts this week was to go back actually and think of what I have got so far THIS year, compared to 2006.
A year ago to today
A year ago I was Indiana, so unhappy with I still don´t know what. Failing a class (K201 - Computer in Business, Kelley School of Business, how could I forget?) and freaking out about it. Spending my nights in Herman B. Wells library, spending my money on coffee and worried about I still don´t know what. Going to therapy, hating my medicine, and other little things that I also was very unhappy and hopeless.
I never understood why my mom so many times complained that I complained too much, that I was overall spending my time when I could be enjoying it.
It seems like I am mentioning the dark ages when I think back! Now I am still may be failing a class (Philosophy, blind teacher I dont even know the name) with an "oh I am not going to die" attitude. Spending my nights with friends, or just walking around my favorite city or in friend´s couches. Spending my money in different restaurants, clothes and traveling. Going to museums, and not caring about this medicine anymore as long as I am healthy. On top of all, I am in love with the most adorable person I could ever met :)
But for now, let me say...
Let me just say I learned from I dont know what yet. Every day I realise this trip to Spain is doing wonders. I am not even mentioning how amazing Europe and the opportunity of being here is. But what I am learning. I can endure to things I never knew I could. Its the first time I am so far away from my mom or even going days without talking to her. Or even not mentioning every detail of my life to her anymore. In the beggining it made so nervous and angry. Until I realized that it´s ok, I may have grown up.
Just so you know, my relationship with my mom is probably the strongest mom/daughter relationship I have ever heard of....
But letting go a bit is good.
I also can´t deny how some people were wrong about me. Very, indeed. Living in the capital of Spain with screaming and rude people around you can make you an aggressive person when necessary. For that comment, I´ll stop it here.
In the end of everything...
We always realize that after the rain the flowers get to grow. And after it´s too dry a tree´s roots grow deeper. What I mean is: after a bad time, one becomes stronger and smarter, the skin gets thicker.
And after being away from the usual for a while and discovering and listening to new things, we get to find out who we really are without any critics on the background. Just the way WE like.
We get to discover what we like, who we like to spend our days with, how we want to spend our days and what kind of thoughts will cross your mind.
If the glass is half full or half empty.
You know?!
SO, with so many words all I wanted to say is: I am fine, alright. Much happier and stronger than a year ago.
...and so you know: this time my glass is half full; mom.
"Be brave, take risks. Nothing can substitute experience." (Paulo Coelho)
Friday, December 7, 2007
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
It's been such a long time I dont write here. So much (and so little at the same time) happened.
I am 21 (for Americans this may sound amazing) and I spent very nicely. I missed some especial people on this day, but after a while birthdays stop being such a big deal.
When midnight hit, I was walking on Gran Vía in Madrid with my friend, eating a Burger King, with no money, couldn't find the bar I wanted to go....and on the phone with my mom. But I have to say, it was so Ana Livia-ish. Even though it wasn't a classy "midnight" I was laughing and glad. :)
I am so clumsy.
"If you can't handle me at my worst, then you don't deserve my best." (Marilyn Monroe)
I am 21 (for Americans this may sound amazing) and I spent very nicely. I missed some especial people on this day, but after a while birthdays stop being such a big deal.
When midnight hit, I was walking on Gran Vía in Madrid with my friend, eating a Burger King, with no money, couldn't find the bar I wanted to go....and on the phone with my mom. But I have to say, it was so Ana Livia-ish. Even though it wasn't a classy "midnight" I was laughing and glad. :)
I am so clumsy.
"If you can't handle me at my worst, then you don't deserve my best." (Marilyn Monroe)
Sunday, November 25, 2007
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Friday, November 9, 2007
a little feist
1.2.3.4 tell me that you love me more
Sleepless, long nights says
What my use is for ?
Oh teenage hopes are alive at your door
Left you with nothing but they want some more
Oh oh your changing your heart
Oh oh you know who you are
Sweet heart, bitter heart now i can't tell you apart
Cozy and cold put the horse before the car
Those teenage hopes who are teasing me, lies ?
Too scared to run after one little lie
Oh oh your changing your heart
Oh oh you know who you are
I absolutely love this song.
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Granada and these days
My last post was so sad since I was so sick. This is better, i think.
Last weekend I went to Granada with Katie and it was amazing. It was definetely worth it not only to see the amazing, gorgeous city of Granada but to see how I got mature since 4 years ago.
I always thought not really, that I had the same mentality, but a lot happened between that time. I could say the most adventurous (Would that be the right word?!) things that happened in my life so far were between that time I was in Granada to now. By adventurous, I don't only mean the good adventures, but the rocky ones that I saw so far. My skin is def. thicker. :)
It was great to see José Luis (my professor from my old school in Granada, my friend). I love how he is so opinionated about everything and how he keeps correcting my grammar.
...
Today for some reason I started worrying about IU, and how it's going to be when I get back. I honestly don't miss IU at ALL, except for the classes itself. My best friends will be graduating.... I even sent a msg to Cristiano asking him if he was leaving or what, since I didnt want to be by myself around there. He said maybe for one or 2 semesters....
I shouldnt worry, I barely know if I'll be alive in a month, but Katie was talking about who she will be roomates with next year in Madison, and it made me think.
What else is new?! Not too much. I'll come back and write again when I am more inspired.
"Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different result"
-Albert Einstein
Last weekend I went to Granada with Katie and it was amazing. It was definetely worth it not only to see the amazing, gorgeous city of Granada but to see how I got mature since 4 years ago.
I always thought not really, that I had the same mentality, but a lot happened between that time. I could say the most adventurous (Would that be the right word?!) things that happened in my life so far were between that time I was in Granada to now. By adventurous, I don't only mean the good adventures, but the rocky ones that I saw so far. My skin is def. thicker. :)
It was great to see José Luis (my professor from my old school in Granada, my friend). I love how he is so opinionated about everything and how he keeps correcting my grammar.
...
Today for some reason I started worrying about IU, and how it's going to be when I get back. I honestly don't miss IU at ALL, except for the classes itself. My best friends will be graduating.... I even sent a msg to Cristiano asking him if he was leaving or what, since I didnt want to be by myself around there. He said maybe for one or 2 semesters....
I shouldnt worry, I barely know if I'll be alive in a month, but Katie was talking about who she will be roomates with next year in Madison, and it made me think.
What else is new?! Not too much. I'll come back and write again when I am more inspired.
"Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different result"
-Albert Einstein
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Oh, what a boring day. I've been in this mood since Friday night, and it sucks. My head is so head with this mucus? maybe, that there is no space for nothing else. My body is the same way. My room looks like there was a hurricane there, which medicines and Klenex all over and I dont even bother making my bed anymore since it's now a permanent space.
I am so in a "I dont care" mode. I skipped my Filosofy class once again, and I took another medicine that will make me fall sleep again. My commitments are blending together, ... and I dont care.
Im in a terrible mood. And I am sorry. I will regret feelin like this later, but honestly....I dont care.
Let me enjoy my I dont careness, since at least I have a reason to not to care.
I am so in a "I dont care" mode. I skipped my Filosofy class once again, and I took another medicine that will make me fall sleep again. My commitments are blending together, ... and I dont care.
Im in a terrible mood. And I am sorry. I will regret feelin like this later, but honestly....I dont care.
Let me enjoy my I dont careness, since at least I have a reason to not to care.
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Só hoje
Hoje eu preciso te encontrar de qualquer jeito
Nem que seja só pra te levar pra casa
Depois de um dia normal...
Olhar teus olhos de promessas fáceis
E te beijar na boca de um jeito que te faça rir (que te faça rir)
Hoje eu preciso te abraçar
Sentir teu cheiro de roupa limpa
Pra esquecer os meus anseios e dormir em paz
Hoje eu preciso ouvir qualquer palavra tua
Qualquer frase exagerada que me faça sentir alegria
Em estar vivo
Hoje eu preciso tomar um café, ouvindo você suspirar
Me dizendo que eu sou o causador da tua insônia
Que eu faço tudo errado sempre, sempre
Hoje preciso de você
Com qualquer humor, com qualquer sorriso
Hoje só tua presença
Vai me deixar feliz
Só hoje
Nem que seja só pra te levar pra casa
Depois de um dia normal...
Olhar teus olhos de promessas fáceis
E te beijar na boca de um jeito que te faça rir (que te faça rir)
Hoje eu preciso te abraçar
Sentir teu cheiro de roupa limpa
Pra esquecer os meus anseios e dormir em paz
Hoje eu preciso ouvir qualquer palavra tua
Qualquer frase exagerada que me faça sentir alegria
Em estar vivo
Hoje eu preciso tomar um café, ouvindo você suspirar
Me dizendo que eu sou o causador da tua insônia
Que eu faço tudo errado sempre, sempre
Hoje preciso de você
Com qualquer humor, com qualquer sorriso
Hoje só tua presença
Vai me deixar feliz
Só hoje
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
saudade
My roomate Katie sent me the lyrics of this song, promising me I would love it. She was so right.
I loved it. :) It was so simple.
I feel a little lazy and homesick this week, I dont know why. Portuguese is the only language to have a word for this huge feeling in my heart: Saudade. :) Saudade, is the feeling of missing someone or something.
Not to get me wrong - I have never been happier than now. However, saudade can kill me at times.
So this song made me happy. It's good to feel that peace in your heart with a mix of saudade. I could even say it's the feeling I have ever felt.
:)
This is the first day of my life
I swear I was born right in the doorway
I went out in the rain suddenly everything changed
They're spreading blankets on the beach
Yours is the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you
Now I don’t know where I am
I don’t know where I’ve been
But I know where I want to go
And so I thought I’d let you know
That these things take forever
I especially am slow
But I realize that I need you
And I wondered if I could come home
Remember the time you drove all night
Just to meet me in the morning
And I thought it was strange you said everything changed
You felt as if you'd just woke up
And you said “this is the first day of my life
I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you
But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you
And I’d probably be happy”
So if you want to be with me
With these things there’s no telling
We just have to wait and see
But I’d rather be working for a paycheck
Than waiting to win the lottery
Besides maybe this time is different
I mean I really think you like me
I loved it. :) It was so simple.
I feel a little lazy and homesick this week, I dont know why. Portuguese is the only language to have a word for this huge feeling in my heart: Saudade. :) Saudade, is the feeling of missing someone or something.
Not to get me wrong - I have never been happier than now. However, saudade can kill me at times.
So this song made me happy. It's good to feel that peace in your heart with a mix of saudade. I could even say it's the feeling I have ever felt.
:)
This is the first day of my life
I swear I was born right in the doorway
I went out in the rain suddenly everything changed
They're spreading blankets on the beach
Yours is the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you
Now I don’t know where I am
I don’t know where I’ve been
But I know where I want to go
And so I thought I’d let you know
That these things take forever
I especially am slow
But I realize that I need you
And I wondered if I could come home
Remember the time you drove all night
Just to meet me in the morning
And I thought it was strange you said everything changed
You felt as if you'd just woke up
And you said “this is the first day of my life
I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you
But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you
And I’d probably be happy”
So if you want to be with me
With these things there’s no telling
We just have to wait and see
But I’d rather be working for a paycheck
Than waiting to win the lottery
Besides maybe this time is different
I mean I really think you like me
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Eu quero....
Quero viajar
Quero conhecer
Quero conversar
E nao quero esquecer
Quero te encontrar
Quero só saber
Quero explorar
E só quero entender
Quero descobrir
Quero saber amar
Quero morrir de rir
Quero sentar e chorar
Quero prestar atençao
Quero na grama deitar
Nao quero ter razao
E preciso aproveitar
Quero ficar calada
Quero falar muito alto
Quero ser amada
Nao quero sentir que falto
Quero fazer amizade
Quero fazer amor
Nao quero sentir saudade
E nem chorar de dor
Quero passar o dia dormindo
E a noite toda acordada
Quero ver voce sorrindo
E estar com voce abracada
Quero ver o que é diferente
Quero aprender a julgar
Quero ver o mundo realmente
E aprender a apreciar
Quero ser independente
Quero me sentir um pouco fragil
Quero ser inteligente
E que meu coracao seja agil
Quero abraçar o mundo
Quero só voce aqui
Quero tudo num segundo
E continuar a sorrir.
Quero conhecer
Quero conversar
E nao quero esquecer
Quero te encontrar
Quero só saber
Quero explorar
E só quero entender
Quero descobrir
Quero saber amar
Quero morrir de rir
Quero sentar e chorar
Quero prestar atençao
Quero na grama deitar
Nao quero ter razao
E preciso aproveitar
Quero ficar calada
Quero falar muito alto
Quero ser amada
Nao quero sentir que falto
Quero fazer amizade
Quero fazer amor
Nao quero sentir saudade
E nem chorar de dor
Quero passar o dia dormindo
E a noite toda acordada
Quero ver voce sorrindo
E estar com voce abracada
Quero ver o que é diferente
Quero aprender a julgar
Quero ver o mundo realmente
E aprender a apreciar
Quero ser independente
Quero me sentir um pouco fragil
Quero ser inteligente
E que meu coracao seja agil
Quero abraçar o mundo
Quero só voce aqui
Quero tudo num segundo
E continuar a sorrir.
Friday, October 19, 2007
Memorable Spain 2007 Quotes (so far)
Me: She said "oh, i would never do that" and I thought "would you fuck yourself? I am sure you would, right?!"
A weird fart noise starts...
Katie: Hey it was not me.
Me: Oh, if the hat fits...
Katie: You mean the shoe?!
To Andrea about a "inside joke"
Me: Cool! That´s gonna be our internal joke!
When Katie crosses the street on a red light:
Me screaming: You crazy bitch, you´re gonna kill us!
When talking about being rude...
Me: Christian, let´s say you´re a jew, and I tell you "Jesus is the man!!!" ....you just dont do it you know.
Then Christian goes with a huge explanation of his religious views.
Oh boy.
Complaining about having to take the long metro back home...
Me: Dude, if the rape is inevitable, just relax and have an orgasm.
Telling Danny about how I hate picky and girly girls:
Me: I hate girls that complain about double dipping. Why? I just asked once to a girl that was bitching on it " do you do blowjobs???"
Danny: I can completely relate double dipping to blowjobs, Ana. wow.
Katie: you crazy brazilians need to realize that it is an INSIDE joke and not an internal joke and that the phrase is "if the shoe fits, wear it." not a hat. and that phrases that involve rape and enjoyment are not acceptable.
and although you didnt ask for my opinion, I´m going to give it to you.
Lesson to be learned: Never call Christian a jew and then say¨"jesus is the man."
:)
Crazy people.
About picture: "Katie, if you had gone to the cultural meeting, you would have known that!"
Katie "Fuck you!"
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Um pensamento...
A vida é muito curta pra arrependimentos, tristeza, solidao, raiva e vergonha. Porém, ame quem voce quiser, do jeito que voce quiser; substitua as horas de solidao com horas de paz ou com horas de completa loucura e use seu corpo pra abraçar a vida, as pessoas, e as oportunidades a frente.
A vida é curta, mas se a gente souber viver, ela pode ser a mais longa e maravilhosa aventura.
-Ana Livia
Monday, October 8, 2007
Good to feel this way.
Cuando yo estoy pensando en ti
Amor es lo que más fuerte sale de mí
Por eso yo siempre vivo tan feliz
Pues tú eres lo que yo más quiero para mí
Cuando yo me voy para Medellín
En cada montaña yo dibujo trozos de ti
Y si yo me voy para Bogot á también allá
Esa sabana bella de ti me hace recordar
Y he recorrido el mundo entero y jamás
Te digo que he visto una cosa más bella que tu mirar
Te digo que he visto la luna de noche hablar con el mar
Pero jamás he visto una cosa más bella que tu mirar
Y es que son tus ojos tu sonrisa y tu boca
Y tu carita de coqueta a la final lo que me gusta a mí
Y soy yo quien se pone siempre como un loco
Cuando me miras poco a poco de la manera que me gusta a mí
Ayer hacía mucho mucho pero mucho calor
Y yo sentía frío porque no tenía todo tu amor
Hoy en cambio hace frío y siento mucho calor
Porque estás tú de nuevo conmigo mi gran amor
Y es que he recorrido el mundo entero y jamás
Te digo que he visto una cosa más bella que tu mirar
Te digo que he visto la luna de noche hablar con el mar
Pero jamás he visto una cosa más bella que tu mirar
Y es que son tus ojos tu sonrisa y tu boca
Y tú carita de coqueta a la final lo que me gusta a mí
Y soy yo quien se pone siempre como un loco
Cuando me miras poco a poco de la manera que me gusta a mí
Cuando yo estoy pensando en ti
Amor es lo que más fuerte sale de mí
Por eso yo siempre vivo tan feliz
Pues tú eres lo que yo más quiero para mí
Cuando yo me voy para Medellín
En cada montaña yo dibujo trozos de ti
Y si yo me voy para Bogot á también allá
Esa sabana bella de ti me hace recordar
Y he recorrido el mundo entero y jamás
Te digo que he visto una cosa más bella que tu mirar
Te digo que he visto la luna de noche hablar con el mar
Pero jamás he visto una cosa más bella que tu mirar
Y es que son tus ojos tu sonrisa y tu boca
Y tu carita de coqueta a la final lo que me gusta a mí
Y soy yo quien se pone siempre como un loco
Cuando me miras poco a poco de la manera que me gusta a mí
Ayer hacía mucho mucho pero mucho calor
Y yo sentía frío porque no tenía todo tu amor
Hoy en cambio hace frío y siento mucho calor
Porque estás tú de nuevo conmigo mi gran amor
Y es que he recorrido el mundo entero y jamás
Te digo que he visto una cosa más bella que tu mirar
Te digo que he visto la luna de noche hablar con el mar
Pero jamás he visto una cosa más bella que tu mirar
Y es que son tus ojos tu sonrisa y tu boca
Y tú carita de coqueta a la final lo que me gusta a mí
Y soy yo quien se pone siempre como un loco
Cuando me miras poco a poco de la manera que me gusta a mí
Thoughts and Memory...
It´s getting cold in Madrid, but not too cold. It´s the perfect weather in my opinion.
Needless to say, I love this city and everything in it. Yesterday, when walking to the park with my friend we were discussing what makes we like a person. He said something...I´ll quote: "We like a person for their qualities, but we love them for their faults". And I guess this is with cities, or situations.
There are things that drive me nuts around here, but in the end of the day I am so glad I could go through them ... I mean, to have the opportunity to go through this culture and feel so angry at times.
I know I complain so much sometimes about never being able to stay in a place and have permanent friends, a permanent house and always having long distance relationships with friends. But it gives me a chance to know people, know places and get pissed off a number of times. :)
Change of subject: last saturday I went to a bullfight with my roomates and some friends. I have to say: I never missed my grandfather more than that day. I know the "show" is a cruel thing, but I also know he would have LOVED to be there. It was almost as if I could see his eyes getting big, and his putting his two palms together and rubbing them so quickly (as he did every time he was excited about something).
The Plaza de Toros was amazing, and I could see him there. Everywhere. In my mind at least.
Actually a lot of Spain reminds me of my grandfather. My neighborhood reminds me of him...A lot of older couples live there, and I everytime I see a grandpa bringing their grandkids from school and listening to their stories I remember of my grandpa coming home from his work and always having some kind of candy in his pocket and asking us what we thought about the government.
Memory is such a beautiful thing.
:)
"Some memories are realities, and are better than anything that can ever happen to one again" (Willa Cather)
Needless to say, I love this city and everything in it. Yesterday, when walking to the park with my friend we were discussing what makes we like a person. He said something...I´ll quote: "We like a person for their qualities, but we love them for their faults". And I guess this is with cities, or situations.
There are things that drive me nuts around here, but in the end of the day I am so glad I could go through them ... I mean, to have the opportunity to go through this culture and feel so angry at times.
I know I complain so much sometimes about never being able to stay in a place and have permanent friends, a permanent house and always having long distance relationships with friends. But it gives me a chance to know people, know places and get pissed off a number of times. :)
Change of subject: last saturday I went to a bullfight with my roomates and some friends. I have to say: I never missed my grandfather more than that day. I know the "show" is a cruel thing, but I also know he would have LOVED to be there. It was almost as if I could see his eyes getting big, and his putting his two palms together and rubbing them so quickly (as he did every time he was excited about something).
The Plaza de Toros was amazing, and I could see him there. Everywhere. In my mind at least.
Actually a lot of Spain reminds me of my grandfather. My neighborhood reminds me of him...A lot of older couples live there, and I everytime I see a grandpa bringing their grandkids from school and listening to their stories I remember of my grandpa coming home from his work and always having some kind of candy in his pocket and asking us what we thought about the government.
Memory is such a beautiful thing.
:)
"Some memories are realities, and are better than anything that can ever happen to one again" (Willa Cather)
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
What I love about...
Here I am again, in Madrid, in school, going through so much. Everything is wonderfully fine! :)
The intensive courses just finished (hopefully I did well!), I am getting used to the new apartment, getting along with the roomies, missing my boyfriend terribly and new classes started today...
It is a mix of so much stuff, I have to say. After a while your skin starts to get culturally thick and I want to learn more and more about this. I live with people from 2 different cultures in my apartment, get on the street to deal with another one while looking with eyes from a Brazilian one. I am not complaining... I am learning and enjoying.
Spending this time in Spain gives me time to think about my life, and things around me. As always, I realize who are the good friends we have and how friendship really works. I have to state here a special thanks to Jamila, she is such a good friend, no matter where I am... we never lose touch.
But I also came to the ridiculous conclusion of how people are: it was only when I moved to Indiana that I came to realize what I really enjoyed in Brazil, when I went to Brazil for summer I realized US was home and only in SPain I realize what I love about the US. I love the breakfast food from the US, the Sunday brunch with lots of fat stuff such as bacon, eggs, pancakes wearing pj´s. I love that I can buy nice underwear in Victoria´s secret and get cheap and cool stuff at Target for so cheap. I LOVE my mom´s kitchen and I love how things work fast, and how everything is open.
But then... I dont want to be like that when I get back to the US, where I realize what was really good in Spain. So here, I´ll make a list of all the things I love about here so far:
-olives!!!!!!!!!
-cheap wine
-sangria, tinto de verano, malibu con piña
-the two kisses on the face!
-public displays of affection
-the respect older couples have for each other in public
-the great bars
-great public transportation
-tortillas españolas, jamón
-how artsy everything is
-how energetic people are about every single thing
-being able to kiss in public without being judged or looked at
-napolitanas :)
-the nightlife
-el parque del buen retiro
-sol
-cheap h&m (well, that was in the US! too)
and most of all, realizing that ...
"No tienes nada a perder, y mucho que viver" (You have nothing to lose, and too much to live).
I must enjoy.
:)
Con amor,
Ana Livia
The intensive courses just finished (hopefully I did well!), I am getting used to the new apartment, getting along with the roomies, missing my boyfriend terribly and new classes started today...
It is a mix of so much stuff, I have to say. After a while your skin starts to get culturally thick and I want to learn more and more about this. I live with people from 2 different cultures in my apartment, get on the street to deal with another one while looking with eyes from a Brazilian one. I am not complaining... I am learning and enjoying.
Spending this time in Spain gives me time to think about my life, and things around me. As always, I realize who are the good friends we have and how friendship really works. I have to state here a special thanks to Jamila, she is such a good friend, no matter where I am... we never lose touch.
But I also came to the ridiculous conclusion of how people are: it was only when I moved to Indiana that I came to realize what I really enjoyed in Brazil, when I went to Brazil for summer I realized US was home and only in SPain I realize what I love about the US. I love the breakfast food from the US, the Sunday brunch with lots of fat stuff such as bacon, eggs, pancakes wearing pj´s. I love that I can buy nice underwear in Victoria´s secret and get cheap and cool stuff at Target for so cheap. I LOVE my mom´s kitchen and I love how things work fast, and how everything is open.
But then... I dont want to be like that when I get back to the US, where I realize what was really good in Spain. So here, I´ll make a list of all the things I love about here so far:
-olives!!!!!!!!!
-cheap wine
-sangria, tinto de verano, malibu con piña
-the two kisses on the face!
-public displays of affection
-the respect older couples have for each other in public
-the great bars
-great public transportation
-tortillas españolas, jamón
-how artsy everything is
-how energetic people are about every single thing
-being able to kiss in public without being judged or looked at
-napolitanas :)
-the nightlife
-el parque del buen retiro
-sol
-cheap h&m (well, that was in the US! too)
and most of all, realizing that ...
"No tienes nada a perder, y mucho que viver" (You have nothing to lose, and too much to live).
I must enjoy.
:)
Con amor,
Ana Livia
Sunday, September 16, 2007
I have so much to do for this week. I am moving to my new apt this week too :D
Good luck!
Well, since I m not in the mood to blog too much today, I'll just leave the lyrics of this adorable song.
Your Body is a Wonderland - John Mayer
We got the afternoon
You got this room for two
One thing I've left to do
Discover me
Discovering you
One mile to every inch of
Your skin like porcelain
One pair of candy lips and
Your bubblegum tongue
And if you want love
We'll make it
Swimming a deep sea
Of blankets
Take all your big plans
And break 'em
This is bound to be a while
Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder (I'll use my hands)
Your body Is a wonderland
Something 'bout the way your hair falls in your face
I love the shape you take when crawling towards the pillowcase
You tell me where to go and
Though I might leave to find it
I'll never let your head hit the bed
Without my hand behind it
You want love? We'll make it
Swimming a deep sea
Of blankets
Take all your big plans
And break 'em
This is bound to be a while
Your body Is a wonderland
Damn baby You frustrate me
I know you're mine all mine all mine
But you look so good it hurts sometimes
Good night :*
Good luck!
Well, since I m not in the mood to blog too much today, I'll just leave the lyrics of this adorable song.
Your Body is a Wonderland - John Mayer
We got the afternoon
You got this room for two
One thing I've left to do
Discover me
Discovering you
One mile to every inch of
Your skin like porcelain
One pair of candy lips and
Your bubblegum tongue
And if you want love
We'll make it
Swimming a deep sea
Of blankets
Take all your big plans
And break 'em
This is bound to be a while
Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder (I'll use my hands)
Your body Is a wonderland
Something 'bout the way your hair falls in your face
I love the shape you take when crawling towards the pillowcase
You tell me where to go and
Though I might leave to find it
I'll never let your head hit the bed
Without my hand behind it
You want love? We'll make it
Swimming a deep sea
Of blankets
Take all your big plans
And break 'em
This is bound to be a while
Your body Is a wonderland
Damn baby You frustrate me
I know you're mine all mine all mine
But you look so good it hurts sometimes
Good night :*
Saturday, September 15, 2007
In Spain
I know it's been so long I don't post here, but everything is so new in my life right now....in every aspect.
I am in Spain since August 30 for school. I am loving the city, the food and living in a touristic place where there's always things to discover and go check out.
I met great people here (mostly Americans from my program so far). I met some great girls here that I just love to talk and hang out with.
My Spanish needs serious practice. I feel like I am good at it, but I need to practice real time.
I feel somewhat homesick, but not too much. In Arizona I was a little lost, and here I feel I am doing my thing (even though I miss SO many people and so much from my family). But as my mom would say, life is full of decisions, and I am happy with mine!:)
Even not doing anything productive over the summer, I enjoyed it so much. I have to admit when summer started I was SO unhappy with myself and with other things. But during the summer I took the time to spend and talk a lot with my mom. I love this, because I always learn so much about her (and me!).
So now I am very happy :P
I also got a new apartment!!!!!! I have two roomates: Katie (we sat next to each other on the plane), and Christian, a guy from Germany. I will spend my first night there today :)
Lets see how that goes!!!
I'll try to post here every day so I can let other people whats going on, and to rembembmer later.
Much love,
Ana Livia
I am in Spain since August 30 for school. I am loving the city, the food and living in a touristic place where there's always things to discover and go check out.
I met great people here (mostly Americans from my program so far). I met some great girls here that I just love to talk and hang out with.
My Spanish needs serious practice. I feel like I am good at it, but I need to practice real time.
I feel somewhat homesick, but not too much. In Arizona I was a little lost, and here I feel I am doing my thing (even though I miss SO many people and so much from my family). But as my mom would say, life is full of decisions, and I am happy with mine!:)
Even not doing anything productive over the summer, I enjoyed it so much. I have to admit when summer started I was SO unhappy with myself and with other things. But during the summer I took the time to spend and talk a lot with my mom. I love this, because I always learn so much about her (and me!).
So now I am very happy :P
I also got a new apartment!!!!!! I have two roomates: Katie (we sat next to each other on the plane), and Christian, a guy from Germany. I will spend my first night there today :)
Lets see how that goes!!!
I'll try to post here every day so I can let other people whats going on, and to rembembmer later.
Much love,
Ana Livia
On the picture it's me and Rebekah (from wisconsin) in Plaza Mayor here in Madrid.
"Who cares what you are, just enjoy it!" (Samantha, Sex and the City)
Thursday, August 9, 2007
Just movies that I love...
Some movies last forever. (Serendipity - 2001)
Whenever I get gloomy with the state of the world, I think about the arrivals gate at Heathrow Airport. General opinion's starting to make out that we live in a world of hatred and greed, but I don't see that. It seems to me that love is everywhere. Often it's not particularly dignified or newsworthy, but it's always there - fathers and sons, mothers and daughters, husbands and wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, old friends. When the planes hit the Twin Towers, as far as I know none of the phone calls from the people on board were messages of hate or revenge - they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I've got a sneaky feeling you'll find that love actually is all around. (Love Actually)
Tuesday, August 7, 2007
Amigas!
*Como é bom saber que certas coisas nunca mudam.*
Essas meninas. Amigas pra sempre.
Parte das minhas melhores memorias tem essas duas. E parte do meu coracao tem elas tambem...
Eu sei que a gente passa muito tempo sem se falar, sem saber o que se passa na vida da outra, sem contar as melhores historias e sem participar.
Mas eu sei, que mesmo longe e depois de muito tempo, a gente se ve e tudo volta ao normal. (pelo menos pra mim....)
"After all, seasons change and so do cities. People come into your life and they go. But it's comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart. And if you're very lucky; a plane ride away." (Sex and the City)
Monday, July 9, 2007
After two years away from my mother-country (if there's such thing!) Im going to Brazil tomorrow. Since I have to pick up my passport in the Spanish consulate in Chicago, the trip will take an extra day. No biggie. I love the windy city anyways.
I am so very excited to go to Brazil. I know things will be different this time. Very indeed.
I really dont feel like explaining, since anyone that knows me pretty decently knows what I am talking about... But I have much peace and God in my heart. It sounds cheesy, but I've been praying a lot, and I am confident everything will be just fine. Fortunally, in Brazil I have a few beautiful friends that I know I can count on...
I believe it will be also awkard ( hahah I never know how to spell it, my bad) to go back to my hometown and not know the trends, whats going on, whos dating who, and being a little out of space.
On the other hand, I cant hardly wait for the new feeling we get when we see someone we havent seen in a looooooooong time. I absolutely LOVE those moments, that big hug and updating the news...
I love seeing memories, places and people. Eating foods that I havent eaten in so long (that will probably taste differently) and realize that everyone is the same in a sense.
Most of all, to make people see u are the same, even living so far...
Well, I'll probably take a little long till I post again. (Even though I have 0 readers, and this is my personal diary kind of).
“We all have our time machines. Some take us back, they're called memories. Some take us forward, they're called dreams.” (jeremy irons):)
Li
I am so very excited to go to Brazil. I know things will be different this time. Very indeed.
I really dont feel like explaining, since anyone that knows me pretty decently knows what I am talking about... But I have much peace and God in my heart. It sounds cheesy, but I've been praying a lot, and I am confident everything will be just fine. Fortunally, in Brazil I have a few beautiful friends that I know I can count on...
I believe it will be also awkard ( hahah I never know how to spell it, my bad) to go back to my hometown and not know the trends, whats going on, whos dating who, and being a little out of space.
On the other hand, I cant hardly wait for the new feeling we get when we see someone we havent seen in a looooooooong time. I absolutely LOVE those moments, that big hug and updating the news...
I love seeing memories, places and people. Eating foods that I havent eaten in so long (that will probably taste differently) and realize that everyone is the same in a sense.
Most of all, to make people see u are the same, even living so far...
Well, I'll probably take a little long till I post again. (Even though I have 0 readers, and this is my personal diary kind of).
“We all have our time machines. Some take us back, they're called memories. Some take us forward, they're called dreams.” (jeremy irons):)
Li
Wednesday, July 4, 2007
amazing song
Amazing song..........love it.
Un café con sal. Ganas de llorar.
Mi mundo empezando a temblar,
presiento que se acerca el final.
No quiero ganar. Ahora eso qué más da.
Estoy cansada ya de inventar excusas que no saben andar.
Y sólo quedarán los buenos momentos de ayer que fueron de los dos.
Y hoy sólo quiero creer ...
que recordarás las tardes de invierno por Madrid,
las noches enteras sin dormir.
La vida pasaba y yo sentía que me iba a morir de amor
al verte esperando en mi portal sentado en el suelo sin pensar
que puedes contar conmigo.
Nunca hubo maldad. Sólo ingenuidad.
Pretendiendo hacernos creer que el mundo estaba a nuestros pies.
Cuando el sueño venga a por mí en silencio voy a construir
una vida a todo color donde vivamos juntos los dos.
Y sólo quedarán los buenos momentos de ayer que fueron de los dos.
Y hoy sólo quiero creer...
que recordarás las tardes de invierno por Madrid,
las noches enteras sin dormir.
La vida pasaba y yo sentía que me iba a morir de amor
al verte esperando en mi portal sentado en el suelo sin pensar
que puedes contar conmigo para siempre.
Y no puedo evitar echarte de menos
mientras das la mano a mi tiempo y te vas.
Yo siento que quiero verte y verte y pienso
que recordarás las tardes de invierno por Madrid,
las noches enteras sin dormir.
La vida pasaba y yo sentía que me iba a morir de amor
al verte esperando en mi portal sentado en el suelo sin pensar
que puedes contar conmigo.
Que recordarás las tardes de invierno por Madrid,
las noches enteras sin dormir.
La vida se pasa y yo me muero, me muero por ti.
(La oreja de van gogh!)
Un café con sal. Ganas de llorar.
Mi mundo empezando a temblar,
presiento que se acerca el final.
No quiero ganar. Ahora eso qué más da.
Estoy cansada ya de inventar excusas que no saben andar.
Y sólo quedarán los buenos momentos de ayer que fueron de los dos.
Y hoy sólo quiero creer ...
que recordarás las tardes de invierno por Madrid,
las noches enteras sin dormir.
La vida pasaba y yo sentía que me iba a morir de amor
al verte esperando en mi portal sentado en el suelo sin pensar
que puedes contar conmigo.
Nunca hubo maldad. Sólo ingenuidad.
Pretendiendo hacernos creer que el mundo estaba a nuestros pies.
Cuando el sueño venga a por mí en silencio voy a construir
una vida a todo color donde vivamos juntos los dos.
Y sólo quedarán los buenos momentos de ayer que fueron de los dos.
Y hoy sólo quiero creer...
que recordarás las tardes de invierno por Madrid,
las noches enteras sin dormir.
La vida pasaba y yo sentía que me iba a morir de amor
al verte esperando en mi portal sentado en el suelo sin pensar
que puedes contar conmigo para siempre.
Y no puedo evitar echarte de menos
mientras das la mano a mi tiempo y te vas.
Yo siento que quiero verte y verte y pienso
que recordarás las tardes de invierno por Madrid,
las noches enteras sin dormir.
La vida pasaba y yo sentía que me iba a morir de amor
al verte esperando en mi portal sentado en el suelo sin pensar
que puedes contar conmigo.
Que recordarás las tardes de invierno por Madrid,
las noches enteras sin dormir.
La vida se pasa y yo me muero, me muero por ti.
(La oreja de van gogh!)
Thursday, June 21, 2007
great interview last night
This was a great interview.
My favorite journalist (Anderson Cooper) and my favorite star (Angelina Jolie).
Amazing piece of the show last night...
Oh, the second video I found on youtube when looking for the piece of the interview. Pretty shocking. I thought everyone should see it, and stop complaining.
I feel like there is so much to be done.
"YOU MUST BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD," - Gandhi
My favorite journalist (Anderson Cooper) and my favorite star (Angelina Jolie).
Amazing piece of the show last night...
Oh, the second video I found on youtube when looking for the piece of the interview. Pretty shocking. I thought everyone should see it, and stop complaining.
I feel like there is so much to be done.
"YOU MUST BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD," - Gandhi
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
A thought
"Sometimes, when we lose ourselves in fear and despair, in routine and constancy, in hopelessness and tragedy, we can thank God for Bavarian sugar cookies. And, fortunately, when there aren't any cookies, we can still find reassurance in a familiar hand on our skin, or a kind and loving gesture, or subtle encouragement, or a loving embrace, or an offer of comfort, not to mention hospital gurneys and nose plugs, an uneaten Danish, soft-spoken secrets, and Fender Stratocasters, and maybe the occasional piece of fiction. And we must remember that all these things, the nuances, the anomalies, the subtleties, which we assume only accessorize our days, are effective for a much larger and nobler cause. They are here to save our lives. I know the idea seems strange, but I also know that it just so happens to be true." (Stranger than Fiction)
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
My favorite article
One article (from last year) of mine:
Love,
Liv
"Nothing in the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity." (Martin Luther King Jr.)
School Board candidate sees diverse road ahead for MCCSC
by Ana Livia Coelho
(Click here if you wanna read this article in the School of Journalism website)
Imagine asking your six-year-old child to draw a picture of a family and getting a drawing of a mom, her female partner and an adopted child. Then imagine discovering that your child in middle-school was able to check out books about sexual orientation confidentially from the school library.
If you are socially conservative, these may sound like unacceptable and even frightening situations.
However, according to Monroe County School Board candidate Geoffrey McKim, it is important to send the message – starting in elementary schools – that all types of families are valued, and to provide resources and support in schools for students to understand and deal with sexual orientation issues.
The School Board’s task is to set the overall policies for the schools, which, according to McKim, should ensure GLBT students are protected and their rights and safety are respected. He believes that should guarantee confidentiality in school libraries and Internet access points. Some schools are considering using filters on computers that screen out content about gender identity or sexual orientation.
“Somebody’s sexual identity is an important part of oneself,” he said, “It’s important that the schools allow that kind of age appropriate material both in the library and the Internet,”
According to McKim a curriculum reflecting a full diversity of families would be positive for students, especially if it started in elementary school. He believes all kinds of non-traditional families must be portrayed and valued, such as blended families, parents with adopted children or single parents.
For IU Second Education student Alex Simmons, a member of the GLBT community, what convinced her to vote for McKim were his views about GLBT rights in Monroe County schools, based on his answers to the Beacon/Bloomington PFLAG 2006 Candidate Questionnaire Results. This questionnaire had some candidates from Monroe county answering questions and expressing their ideas about GLBT rights.
“I like the fact that McKim supports having resources available about sexual orientation in schools in an age appropriate way,” she said.
McKim explained how he thinks Monroe County schools are far ahead of others, with counselors trained on dealing with prejudice regarding GLBT students.
However, if elected, he said that one of the policies he would set would be that any kind of harassment based on sexual orientation would be completely unacceptable in schools. McKim also explained that he would like to see teachers and school administrators being more proactive when dealing with bullying between the students.
“Not just reacting when parents complain, but recognizing it at the earliest possible point,” he said.
Maybe we are still far from having young kids able to see a traditional family the same way they see ones with two “moms” or “dads”. However McKim reminds that similar leaps in consciousness occurred as a result of the Civil Rights Movement. So, it is not hard to believe that in five to ten years GLBT issues – in schools and beyond – will have progressed and that even the marriage distinction won’t make a difference anymore.
“I do believe in my lifetime a lot of old distinctions will be erased,” he said.
Love,
Liv
"Nothing in the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity." (Martin Luther King Jr.)
School Board candidate sees diverse road ahead for MCCSC
by Ana Livia Coelho
(Click here if you wanna read this article in the School of Journalism website)
Imagine asking your six-year-old child to draw a picture of a family and getting a drawing of a mom, her female partner and an adopted child. Then imagine discovering that your child in middle-school was able to check out books about sexual orientation confidentially from the school library.
If you are socially conservative, these may sound like unacceptable and even frightening situations.
However, according to Monroe County School Board candidate Geoffrey McKim, it is important to send the message – starting in elementary schools – that all types of families are valued, and to provide resources and support in schools for students to understand and deal with sexual orientation issues.
The School Board’s task is to set the overall policies for the schools, which, according to McKim, should ensure GLBT students are protected and their rights and safety are respected. He believes that should guarantee confidentiality in school libraries and Internet access points. Some schools are considering using filters on computers that screen out content about gender identity or sexual orientation.
“Somebody’s sexual identity is an important part of oneself,” he said, “It’s important that the schools allow that kind of age appropriate material both in the library and the Internet,”
According to McKim a curriculum reflecting a full diversity of families would be positive for students, especially if it started in elementary school. He believes all kinds of non-traditional families must be portrayed and valued, such as blended families, parents with adopted children or single parents.
For IU Second Education student Alex Simmons, a member of the GLBT community, what convinced her to vote for McKim were his views about GLBT rights in Monroe County schools, based on his answers to the Beacon/Bloomington PFLAG 2006 Candidate Questionnaire Results. This questionnaire had some candidates from Monroe county answering questions and expressing their ideas about GLBT rights.
“I like the fact that McKim supports having resources available about sexual orientation in schools in an age appropriate way,” she said.
McKim explained how he thinks Monroe County schools are far ahead of others, with counselors trained on dealing with prejudice regarding GLBT students.
However, if elected, he said that one of the policies he would set would be that any kind of harassment based on sexual orientation would be completely unacceptable in schools. McKim also explained that he would like to see teachers and school administrators being more proactive when dealing with bullying between the students.
“Not just reacting when parents complain, but recognizing it at the earliest possible point,” he said.
Maybe we are still far from having young kids able to see a traditional family the same way they see ones with two “moms” or “dads”. However McKim reminds that similar leaps in consciousness occurred as a result of the Civil Rights Movement. So, it is not hard to believe that in five to ten years GLBT issues – in schools and beyond – will have progressed and that even the marriage distinction won’t make a difference anymore.
“I do believe in my lifetime a lot of old distinctions will be erased,” he said.
Thursday, June 7, 2007
serendipity
I watched this movie - as well as Love Actually - in Granada.
I have the fondest memories everytime I watch them, or hear any songs from them or even think of them.
No one will never understand why.
Sara: Well, if we're meant to meet again, we'll meet again. it's just not the right time now.
Jonathan: Maybe we're supposed to meet on British time and we're five hours too early. (Serendipity)
I have the fondest memories everytime I watch them, or hear any songs from them or even think of them.
No one will never understand why.
Sara: Well, if we're meant to meet again, we'll meet again. it's just not the right time now.
Jonathan: Maybe we're supposed to meet on British time and we're five hours too early. (Serendipity)
Monday, June 4, 2007
Paris Hilton in Jail.
I don't write about news here, but this was pretty funny. Paris "whore" Hilton is currently in jail. I was pretty glad she is in: Im sick of watching these drug addict, slut and anorexic celebrities get the spotlight for their "greatness" and set a role model to today's children and teenagers. At least, I hope these teenagers get the idea that even Paris can get fucked up and go to jail!
I feel bad! When I was 13ish, my favorite starts were the virgin-Britney Spears, the Christina Aguilera that would say "My body says lets go, but my hearts is sayin' no" (even though I just recently got what "rubbing the right way" and "come, come, come and let me out" means) and Backstreet Boys saying "I will never break your heart".
Now Bitchney is completely outta her mind, Lindsay Lo-ho is a slut that is always stoned and the song our lovely teenagers send to their loved ones probably says "I'll take you to the candy shop/ I'll let you lick the lolypop". Jesus!!!
Then yesterday, someone told me that I should never listen to Amy Winehouse, just because of that song "rehab".
Now COME ON! SHe is one of the few talented artists that currently exists. I mean, TALENTED. She might be not the prettiest, but hey, Im not hookin up with her. In my opinon, her song "Rehab" is a complete joke about all these girls that spend time in "rehab". You know, back in the days rich people would go to Italy, Bora Bora, Malibu...
now they go to REHAB! Cool!
Kids today are getting it SO wrong. They should turn off their cell phones, take off the I-pod from their ears and start reading good books and enjoyin whats good in life. Otherwise, they'll end up in rehab too!
Oh, I started with the whole Paris Hilton thing. So, yesterday at the MTV Movie Awards the host - Sarah Silverman - made a quite funny comment in front of Paris.
I loved it.
"...I just worry that she's gonna break her teeth on those things...Oh sweety!" (Sarah Silverman)
High 5, Sarah!
I feel bad! When I was 13ish, my favorite starts were the virgin-Britney Spears, the Christina Aguilera that would say "My body says lets go, but my hearts is sayin' no" (even though I just recently got what "rubbing the right way" and "come, come, come and let me out" means) and Backstreet Boys saying "I will never break your heart".
Now Bitchney is completely outta her mind, Lindsay Lo-ho is a slut that is always stoned and the song our lovely teenagers send to their loved ones probably says "I'll take you to the candy shop/ I'll let you lick the lolypop". Jesus!!!
Then yesterday, someone told me that I should never listen to Amy Winehouse, just because of that song "rehab".
Now COME ON! SHe is one of the few talented artists that currently exists. I mean, TALENTED. She might be not the prettiest, but hey, Im not hookin up with her. In my opinon, her song "Rehab" is a complete joke about all these girls that spend time in "rehab". You know, back in the days rich people would go to Italy, Bora Bora, Malibu...
now they go to REHAB! Cool!
Kids today are getting it SO wrong. They should turn off their cell phones, take off the I-pod from their ears and start reading good books and enjoyin whats good in life. Otherwise, they'll end up in rehab too!
Oh, I started with the whole Paris Hilton thing. So, yesterday at the MTV Movie Awards the host - Sarah Silverman - made a quite funny comment in front of Paris.
I loved it.
"...I just worry that she's gonna break her teeth on those things...Oh sweety!" (Sarah Silverman)
High 5, Sarah!
Friday, June 1, 2007
Thursday, May 31, 2007
A poem
From such a great book (Dance While You Can - Lance Wubblels)
First I was dying to finish high school and start college.
And then I was dying to finish college and start working.
And then I was dying to marry and have children.
And then I was dying for my children
to grow old enough
so I could get back to my career.
And then I was dying to retire.
And now I am dying....
and suddenly realize that I forgot to live.
(Author Unknown)
"While I Can Dance"
"While I Still Can Dance...I Will delight in the sheer pleasure of being with you....
Just being with you.
Days spent with you are among the best in my world."
(While I Still Can Dance - Lance Wubbels)
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Passion
Passion, according to my friend webster, is defined as an "emotion that is deeply stirring or ungovernable".No, its actually not about love. Not at all. Even though love might last forever for some, it is not as intense (and - oh so good) as passion.
The cure for this boredom of life, of long days and mean people is passion . For something, even better for someone. It just adds meaning to life.
According t to Descartes there are six ‘primitive’ passions :wonder, love, hatred, desire, joy, and sadness. An this same academic article explains that, such passions "are not meaningless agitations of the animal spirits, but ingredients in the good life.” (Frijda, 2000, p. 6)
Personally, I agree.
“I want to feel passion, I want to feel pain. I want to weep at the sound of your name. Come make me laugh, come make me cry... just make me feel alive.” Joey Lauren Adams
Saturday, May 26, 2007
no one comes here anyway
The fact that I've been so lazy around this house, fearing the scorpions, gave me so much time to write in this blog!!
I know my last post was so boring, and I apologize. PMS is not easy, and it completely drives my inspiration down! I've been so confused and nervous latety, having the weirdest dreams and thinking so much. Yep, an empty mind can house the devil. It is true indeed.
However, it gave me time to think about diets, voluntary work, Spain, and talk to old friends. :-)
I'll try to write a poem:
When
When all is done, but nothing is said
Even while our lips smile and kiss
Our hearts are broken and sad
Because a true feeling they miss.
When tears fall, but we pretend to cry
It takes time for our reason to realize
To me, and to you this love is a lie
Of our letters and kisses, won't matter their size.
When we hold, feeling as if walking away
The obligation comes quick,
And the words come of my mouth and say,
"I love you", another beautiful trick.
When we lay, thinking how to say goodbye
To each other, we give a fake smile.
Wondering how to cover up again for such lie.
Then we think "let's wait for a while,"
When we celebrate, thinking how much longer this could last,
We keep our meanings inside our hearts, afraid;
Realizing how life passes and time is going in a pace that's fast.
And how this true, beautiful outside love, is purely made.
By Ana Livia Coelho
"You're just a little boy, all you do is annoy...you must talk so big, to make up for smaller things." (Christina Aguilera/Lil' Kim)"
I know my last post was so boring, and I apologize. PMS is not easy, and it completely drives my inspiration down! I've been so confused and nervous latety, having the weirdest dreams and thinking so much. Yep, an empty mind can house the devil. It is true indeed.
However, it gave me time to think about diets, voluntary work, Spain, and talk to old friends. :-)
I'll try to write a poem:
When
When all is done, but nothing is said
Even while our lips smile and kiss
Our hearts are broken and sad
Because a true feeling they miss.
When tears fall, but we pretend to cry
It takes time for our reason to realize
To me, and to you this love is a lie
Of our letters and kisses, won't matter their size.
When we hold, feeling as if walking away
The obligation comes quick,
And the words come of my mouth and say,
"I love you", another beautiful trick.
When we lay, thinking how to say goodbye
To each other, we give a fake smile.
Wondering how to cover up again for such lie.
Then we think "let's wait for a while,"
When we celebrate, thinking how much longer this could last,
We keep our meanings inside our hearts, afraid;
Realizing how life passes and time is going in a pace that's fast.
And how this true, beautiful outside love, is purely made.
By Ana Livia Coelho
"You're just a little boy, all you do is annoy...you must talk so big, to make up for smaller things." (Christina Aguilera/Lil' Kim)"
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
This is me, thank you very much :-)
I've been thinking about what makes us who we are. Our fears? Our past? Our pictures? Our personal things? Our perfumes? Then, I got to the conclusion: all of this is not enough.
I always believed one's bedroom depicted his personality. I believe it is true, indeed. However, for people like me, who dont have their own bedroom (I come and go. Dorm, and now, for the summer, a room at my mom's then, a room in Spain) this theory does not really work.
So, today, when unpacking my boxes from Indiana, I found so much. That box, was my tiny life. If you, without knowing me, opened that, you could say some about me.
Here's what I had:
Tons of dvds, A bible, a rosary, and an image of the Virgin Mary. A great number of pictures of my friends. (friends from Brazil, ex-boyfriends, dogs, etc). Love letters (I keep all of them.) Books (one which I never read, the other called "Nitty, Gritty, Grammar" and one of photography). A Spanish dictionary.
And more and more..........
I love movies. I am religious, I love my memories more than anything in this world. I love the idea of true love, soul mates and all that crap. I hate reading. (Except for school). And Spanish is in my blood.
However, I feel theres so much more in my personality. I am terrified of scorpions and spiders, I love having people messing with my hair, I hate dependent people, I am super supportive of gay rights, I would never wear real fur, I try to watch CNN every morning.
I am confused. So confused. All the time, and I dont know why. I bite my nails, I move my toes everytime I am in pain. I also love to hold someone's hands and squeeze the hell outta of them when I am nervous, in pain or I am laughing.
I love cooking. I completely love to hug people. My mom is my example.
I love to sleep in the same bed as my friends. I am more jealous of my friends than I was ever with any boyfriend. I try to keep a good friendship with my ex-boyfriends. I cry all the time, and I think it feels great. I go to bed late, every single night.
I read celebrity gossip too much. I love the smell of roses.
I have a passion for scented candles. I've done bad things that I will never regret of.
I kind of dont trust in men. I hate dumb girls. And I hate even more guys who prefer to have sex with one of them, then to have a great conversation with a smart one (hey, not nerdy!)
I always believed one's bedroom depicted his personality. I believe it is true, indeed. However, for people like me, who dont have their own bedroom (I come and go. Dorm, and now, for the summer, a room at my mom's then, a room in Spain) this theory does not really work.
So, today, when unpacking my boxes from Indiana, I found so much. That box, was my tiny life. If you, without knowing me, opened that, you could say some about me.
Here's what I had:
Tons of dvds, A bible, a rosary, and an image of the Virgin Mary. A great number of pictures of my friends. (friends from Brazil, ex-boyfriends, dogs, etc). Love letters (I keep all of them.) Books (one which I never read, the other called "Nitty, Gritty, Grammar" and one of photography). A Spanish dictionary.
And more and more..........
I love movies. I am religious, I love my memories more than anything in this world. I love the idea of true love, soul mates and all that crap. I hate reading. (Except for school). And Spanish is in my blood.
However, I feel theres so much more in my personality. I am terrified of scorpions and spiders, I love having people messing with my hair, I hate dependent people, I am super supportive of gay rights, I would never wear real fur, I try to watch CNN every morning.
I am confused. So confused. All the time, and I dont know why. I bite my nails, I move my toes everytime I am in pain. I also love to hold someone's hands and squeeze the hell outta of them when I am nervous, in pain or I am laughing.
I love cooking. I completely love to hug people. My mom is my example.
I love to sleep in the same bed as my friends. I am more jealous of my friends than I was ever with any boyfriend. I try to keep a good friendship with my ex-boyfriends. I cry all the time, and I think it feels great. I go to bed late, every single night.
I read celebrity gossip too much. I love the smell of roses.
I have a passion for scented candles. I've done bad things that I will never regret of.
I kind of dont trust in men. I hate dumb girls. And I hate even more guys who prefer to have sex with one of them, then to have a great conversation with a smart one (hey, not nerdy!)
I am scared of driving, and scared to get too compromised with someone. However, I have my entire wedding planned (the dress, the flowers, the songs). I am liberal - oh so liberal. I call my mom when Im drunk and sick, when I get into a fight in a party or when i crash my car 3am.
I only trust in my mom and my sister in this whole world.
These are only some things about me. I would love to hear about others.. I dont know if anyone ever knew me that well - except for mama, of course - but I dont know. It takes time, patience and tolerance to know people truly - in my opinion.
Oh well. Its late. I better go to bed.
"Well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings /And the drama queens /I'd like to think the best of me /Is still hiding / Up my sleeve" (John Mayer)
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
What is your happiness?
"Find purpose; the means will follow"
Mohandas Gandhi
Finding Happiness...
It might be difficult to encounter happiness in those worst days. It doesn't truly matter if you are rich, poor, healthy or sick. It comes from within.
It's sad to realize that sometimes, people only start to appreciate the smell of pines when walking , or the orange and red leaves in the beggining of fall or even the silence when they get a deathly disease such as cancer. It's sad to realize people don't really do what they want in life, even when they know from the day they are born that this life is quite short.
We all want happiness. But, first...what is happiness? It's a quite difficult answer, let me tell you. It's probably because people don't understand what is their OWN happiness. There is no such thing as an Universal happiness and enjoyment. Happiness is like taste and opinion, each person is different. Thinking that winning the lottery could make one happy is the biggest mistake. (However it may be for some).
I know people that lead simple and humble lives, and I know amazing people that lead their lives in a wheelchair. These people, were so much happier than a lot of others I know.
Depression is the new trend nowadays. And what is so interesting to notice, is that humble people don't have the luxury to say they are depressed. It never even crossed their minds, I suppose. I am not arguing that depression don't exist, it does. Serotonin levels go down, I guess. Bla bla bla.
But before running to a doctor, asking for some Prozac, stop and think about your life. Think of the worst days you've had. The worst part of the days.
What could be done differently?
Meditation can be the strongest - and cheapest - Prozac ever. Even the same doctors that prescribe Prozac state that: laughing and meditating can save your life.
Believe or not, the most important thing to do in your life - even before start making your decisions in regards to life - is to decide what makes you happy. It might take a long time...days, months. But search for what you want to do, what thoughts you want to cross your mind, what kinds of people you want to be around you, how do you want to see yourself....
It's a journey, that requires patience, a bit of selfishness and much love for yourself. It is the most significant journey of your life. Because after you are done with this journey, things will make sense. You will be surprised.
The big picture of life is calling. Life is calling.
The most important thing to learn is to enjoy. Even if you must spend long hours in a library (just like I am now) appreciate the silence. Look for a perspective in your life that makes you smile. I am sure you will find it.
Appreciate things, the small things. Weddings, birthdays, and winning the lottery don't happen very often, so enjoy the birds, the smells, the coffee you drink and the company of the ones you love.
Learn that time and silence can do wonders for you. Believing can relieve your heart. And love - for yourself, for who you are - can feel so damn good.
Love,
Analivia
Mohandas Gandhi
Finding Happiness...
It might be difficult to encounter happiness in those worst days. It doesn't truly matter if you are rich, poor, healthy or sick. It comes from within.
It's sad to realize that sometimes, people only start to appreciate the smell of pines when walking , or the orange and red leaves in the beggining of fall or even the silence when they get a deathly disease such as cancer. It's sad to realize people don't really do what they want in life, even when they know from the day they are born that this life is quite short.
We all want happiness. But, first...what is happiness? It's a quite difficult answer, let me tell you. It's probably because people don't understand what is their OWN happiness. There is no such thing as an Universal happiness and enjoyment. Happiness is like taste and opinion, each person is different. Thinking that winning the lottery could make one happy is the biggest mistake. (However it may be for some).
I know people that lead simple and humble lives, and I know amazing people that lead their lives in a wheelchair. These people, were so much happier than a lot of others I know.
Depression is the new trend nowadays. And what is so interesting to notice, is that humble people don't have the luxury to say they are depressed. It never even crossed their minds, I suppose. I am not arguing that depression don't exist, it does. Serotonin levels go down, I guess. Bla bla bla.
But before running to a doctor, asking for some Prozac, stop and think about your life. Think of the worst days you've had. The worst part of the days.
What could be done differently?
Meditation can be the strongest - and cheapest - Prozac ever. Even the same doctors that prescribe Prozac state that: laughing and meditating can save your life.
Believe or not, the most important thing to do in your life - even before start making your decisions in regards to life - is to decide what makes you happy. It might take a long time...days, months. But search for what you want to do, what thoughts you want to cross your mind, what kinds of people you want to be around you, how do you want to see yourself....
It's a journey, that requires patience, a bit of selfishness and much love for yourself. It is the most significant journey of your life. Because after you are done with this journey, things will make sense. You will be surprised.
The big picture of life is calling. Life is calling.
The most important thing to learn is to enjoy. Even if you must spend long hours in a library (just like I am now) appreciate the silence. Look for a perspective in your life that makes you smile. I am sure you will find it.
Appreciate things, the small things. Weddings, birthdays, and winning the lottery don't happen very often, so enjoy the birds, the smells, the coffee you drink and the company of the ones you love.
Learn that time and silence can do wonders for you. Believing can relieve your heart. And love - for yourself, for who you are - can feel so damn good.
Love,
Analivia
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
España!!! Ay ay ay!
I am so very excited for my trip :-)
I am dreaming about every night, and trying to think in Spanish...:-)
Gotta love it!
I'll miss my friends SO much, but I really want them to keep in touch with me, write with the news here in the US (and in Brazil!) and why not?! come visit me!!!!!!!!!
Muah,
Ana
I am dreaming about every night, and trying to think in Spanish...:-)
Gotta love it!
I'll miss my friends SO much, but I really want them to keep in touch with me, write with the news here in the US (and in Brazil!) and why not?! come visit me!!!!!!!!!
Muah,
Ana
Monday, April 9, 2007
My most recent article.
Love, Ana
"You must be the change you want to see in the world." (Gandhi)
Vietnam Veteran's Past Inspires Him to Reach out to Needy Brazilian Communities
By Ana Livia Coelho
A man from a poor family in rural Northern Indiana goes to Vietnam during the war’s worst years and sees devastation, poverty and violence. When he returns to America, traumatized by the war, he goes through three divorces and an aneurism that almost killed him. As the war in Iraq surfaces, bringing economical problems to the country, his entire life falls apart. He loses his house and his career. He has to start his life all over.
In spite of a difficult past, Phillip Wagner, the protagonist of this story, makes it clear that his main goal is to help others, especially the impoverished communities from Brazil.
“When I returned from overseas, I had this strong personal commitment to always be somehow engaged in something for the world,” said Wagner.
Wagner, a post-graduate student in Latin American and Caribbean Studies at Indiana University and a freelance journalist, has been personally working with Brazilian communities since 1995. In 2002, he formally founded Rhythm of Hope in Brazil, a program that assists poor communities in Salvador da Bahia, Brazil.
According to Wagner, Rhythm of Hope volunteers focus on developing relationships with other programs in Bahia to assist their efforts in strengthening the community. In working with these other programs, the volunteers are able to understand the projects and needs for them to be successful. By getting donations, raising awareness of the different programs in the community, and informing people of ways to give support to the efforts in Bahia, Rhythm of Hope gets the necessary financial, material, and volunteer assistance for the other programs to be as helpful as possible.
A Difficult Past
From growing up in an underprivileged family and suffering from polio, to living through the devastation and injustice he had to witness during the war, Wagner, a Vietnam veteran, has lived an intense and difficult life.
“My imagination was very suppressed. I had no conception that I would ever see the world,” said Wagner of his emotional childhood.
To this day, Wagner is still affected by his wartime memories and the atrocious tragedies.
“Oh...This song. I was in Vietnam when I heard it,” sighed an emotional Wagner after a long pause when the song played.
While he is still moved by his past, Wagner’s aims are to “reinvent” himself and to encourage people to help others. He claims that his efforts in helping underprivileged communities should not be seen as gratifying, but as something that should be done.
“I don’t do any of this because it makes me feel good. I do it because it needs to be done and there are not a whole lot of people doing this kind of stuff,” said Wagner.
Inspired to Help the Brazilian Community
Inspired to help the Brazilian Community
His work in Brazil started when Wagner, an instructor for Electronic Data Systems University at the time, was teaching classes on process and risk management in the country. During his time there, he wrote a story for the Sunday Travel Supplement in the Indianapolis Star. Its repercussions were so positive that a year later, Wagner was sent to Brazil to produce more stories on the country.
When in Brazil, Wagner discovered and was inspired by programs such as Arte Consciente, Axé, and Circo Picolinho that are aimed at rebuilding and strengthening the underprivileged communities of Brazil. Since then, Wagner has become more and more passionate about helping Brazil.
According to Paula Dias, a Brazilian student of anthropology and a fellow member of the Brazilian Association of Indiana University, Wagner’s work is inspiring and gratifying for Brazil.
“Being a Brazilian, I can say how important and needed it is to help these children to have a better future,” she said. “It’s good to know that Wagner is trying so hard to make people aware about Brazil and to bring students to help.”
Recently named an advisor for peace and unity of City Montessori School in Lucknow, India, Wagner’s passion inspires others. According to Wagner, Ram Podicheti, an Indiana University employee from India, has a plan to start a branch of Rhythm of Hope in India. Another student is also forming the same organization in Nepal.
“The world is not going to get better by trying to build democracies or foster regimes changes,” Wagner explained. “It will only get better when people start fostering humanity and start treating human beings the way they deserve to be treated.”
Listen to Phillip Wagner speak about his goals and ambitions
"You must be the change you want to see in the world." (Gandhi)
Vietnam Veteran's Past Inspires Him to Reach out to Needy Brazilian Communities
By Ana Livia Coelho
A man from a poor family in rural Northern Indiana goes to Vietnam during the war’s worst years and sees devastation, poverty and violence. When he returns to America, traumatized by the war, he goes through three divorces and an aneurism that almost killed him. As the war in Iraq surfaces, bringing economical problems to the country, his entire life falls apart. He loses his house and his career. He has to start his life all over.
In spite of a difficult past, Phillip Wagner, the protagonist of this story, makes it clear that his main goal is to help others, especially the impoverished communities from Brazil.
“When I returned from overseas, I had this strong personal commitment to always be somehow engaged in something for the world,” said Wagner.
Wagner, a post-graduate student in Latin American and Caribbean Studies at Indiana University and a freelance journalist, has been personally working with Brazilian communities since 1995. In 2002, he formally founded Rhythm of Hope in Brazil, a program that assists poor communities in Salvador da Bahia, Brazil.
According to Wagner, Rhythm of Hope volunteers focus on developing relationships with other programs in Bahia to assist their efforts in strengthening the community. In working with these other programs, the volunteers are able to understand the projects and needs for them to be successful. By getting donations, raising awareness of the different programs in the community, and informing people of ways to give support to the efforts in Bahia, Rhythm of Hope gets the necessary financial, material, and volunteer assistance for the other programs to be as helpful as possible.
A Difficult Past
From growing up in an underprivileged family and suffering from polio, to living through the devastation and injustice he had to witness during the war, Wagner, a Vietnam veteran, has lived an intense and difficult life.
“My imagination was very suppressed. I had no conception that I would ever see the world,” said Wagner of his emotional childhood.
To this day, Wagner is still affected by his wartime memories and the atrocious tragedies.
“Oh...This song. I was in Vietnam when I heard it,” sighed an emotional Wagner after a long pause when the song played.
While he is still moved by his past, Wagner’s aims are to “reinvent” himself and to encourage people to help others. He claims that his efforts in helping underprivileged communities should not be seen as gratifying, but as something that should be done.
“I don’t do any of this because it makes me feel good. I do it because it needs to be done and there are not a whole lot of people doing this kind of stuff,” said Wagner.
Inspired to Help the Brazilian Community
Inspired to help the Brazilian Community
His work in Brazil started when Wagner, an instructor for Electronic Data Systems University at the time, was teaching classes on process and risk management in the country. During his time there, he wrote a story for the Sunday Travel Supplement in the Indianapolis Star. Its repercussions were so positive that a year later, Wagner was sent to Brazil to produce more stories on the country.
When in Brazil, Wagner discovered and was inspired by programs such as Arte Consciente, Axé, and Circo Picolinho that are aimed at rebuilding and strengthening the underprivileged communities of Brazil. Since then, Wagner has become more and more passionate about helping Brazil.
According to Paula Dias, a Brazilian student of anthropology and a fellow member of the Brazilian Association of Indiana University, Wagner’s work is inspiring and gratifying for Brazil.
“Being a Brazilian, I can say how important and needed it is to help these children to have a better future,” she said. “It’s good to know that Wagner is trying so hard to make people aware about Brazil and to bring students to help.”
Recently named an advisor for peace and unity of City Montessori School in Lucknow, India, Wagner’s passion inspires others. According to Wagner, Ram Podicheti, an Indiana University employee from India, has a plan to start a branch of Rhythm of Hope in India. Another student is also forming the same organization in Nepal.
“The world is not going to get better by trying to build democracies or foster regimes changes,” Wagner explained. “It will only get better when people start fostering humanity and start treating human beings the way they deserve to be treated.”
Listen to Phillip Wagner speak about his goals and ambitions
Thursday, March 29, 2007
First Time!
Welcome, whoever you are!
I have no idea how you got here, however, I am happy you did so.
This blog will be about ...............me. I am creating it because in August I am leaving to Madrid and I will stay there until June of 2008.
The idea, was to write about my experiences, and to have it exposed for my friends.
So, welcome again.
I thought about writing a bio thing, but...blah. Maybe some other time.
Oh, I will always put my fav quotes in the end of my posts.
Love,
Liv
"Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent." (Eleanor Roosevelt)
I have no idea how you got here, however, I am happy you did so.
This blog will be about ...............me. I am creating it because in August I am leaving to Madrid and I will stay there until June of 2008.
The idea, was to write about my experiences, and to have it exposed for my friends.
So, welcome again.
I thought about writing a bio thing, but...blah. Maybe some other time.
Oh, I will always put my fav quotes in the end of my posts.
Love,
Liv
"Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent." (Eleanor Roosevelt)
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